Seclusion of a Lonely Poet

I was supposed to be joining a competition of making a haiku in "i Poetry TV", but I don't want to pay money to participate... anyways I will just post my Haiku here in my blog... I will try to make more...

love is my hobby
you are my one and only
why dont you take me

this, actually is a song i just learnt while i was taking a bath… and then i just wrote it down as soon as i dried up and clothed… and of course i’ve edited and added some more to it… it's actually about a girl whom is with my loved one, i don't like her...


I think that I’m sick
I think that I’m alone, so alone
I think now I’m confused, I feel used

(Bridge-1)

Oh, did you ever mean it when you say… when you say…

(Chorus-1)

That you love me… that you need me… did you just want me? Or did you ever love me like I do…

I think that I’m cursed,
I think that I’m crazed, (yeah)why am I erased
I think now I’m sure, there’s not any cure

(Bridge-2)

Oh, did you never felt…my warm embrace… (and I repeat this phrase…)

(Chorus-2)

(No)Did you love me… (No)did you need me… did you just want me?(Yeah) Or did you ever love me… just like I do…

Was it all a lie, NO! Don’t you deny…
‘Say you’re such a bitch…
Used me to FUCK YOU when you itch
No…no time to cry, I want you to die

(Repeat Bridge-1)
(Repeat Chorus-1)
Don’t kneel down my floor
Get out of my door,
NO! Don’t you ignore
Don’t believe anymore,
You’re such a whore!
You’re such a bore
My life you tore,
Reached up to my core,
And I say, GET OUT OF MY DOOR!!!

(Repeat Bridge-2)
(Repeat Chorus-2)

Yeah, did I learn or did I not,
What matters now, is what I’ve not….
You’re not a priest so don’t you preach
My unholy beast, you’re blasted speech…
Will never work things out…
Now I’ll be your jury,
So meet my savage fury
And oh… yes… yes… surely…
You love just so poorly… YOU DAMN BITCH!

Damn me, more damn to you
‘Just wanna hear, what is true
What d’you think, what d’you do
I’m wasted here, waiting for you

I waited for you, waited for nothing
Thought that I, for you is something
‘Coz you know, you are my everything
Everything now just ended as nothing

I don’t do things just for mere fun
I’m not for free, I’m not that one
If you want me, then get things done
Anticipating stabs, so don’t dare run

I know you’re afraid, well I am too
What would there be, I have no clue
We’re not alone, there’s me and you
Let’s just face life, like nothing’s new

Look around, to see the faces of those who dare to hurt you
Move around, walk away from them all who stabs unto you
Spit around, and observe how they frown, what will you do
Spin around, to dodge everything who tries to break you

But then observe, what do you see
You must preserve—your dignity
And let them see, that you disagree
It’s your victory, ‘coz now you’re free
Yes, now you’re free… with your dignity

Walk around, and re-think over everything that you wanted to
Fool around, because sometimes it is just what you have to
Turn around, for it might be the last thing you need to do
Scream around, and let them hear what your heart is in to

And then look about, and then you’ll see
You must put out, your dignity
And let them see, that you disagree
It’s your victory, ‘coz now you’re free
Yes, now you’re free… with your dignity

Grieving won’t ever change anything
Living is now what you are needing
Waiting just for the unjust nothin
Weeping is simply wasted dealing

Feeling pain and always keeping
Nothing it does, your heart’s rotting
Revolving in the murk world of evening
Seeing none of thy beautiful morning

Returning in the world of the living
Turning back and move on finding
Swelling eyes are last to be mending
Forgetting, facing, just stop regretting

if you would be a disease, i would gladly sacrifice myself

for in that way, i could say, that you’ve been a part of me

the mere entry of your microbes in my body, is so much

i would cry, not for the pain and troubles you are carrying

it’s because for once, you did care to know me a little bit more

i would gladly be infected by your love flu, because im so into you

but so selfish i am, i won’t let anyone other than me to be infected

if it may that i should be isolated and quarantined in such a lab

it would be fine, yes it would be fine, as long as your just mine…!

BUT IT WOULD BE BEST TO BE HEALTHY AND ALSO BE WITH YOU…

everytime
im all alone, i look back in time, wishing it was different from what
is now, wishing after all those things were done, it turned out right

i
always see you, i still feel you, just like when we were still
together, i need you, i want you, please be mine, i beg you, please be
mine
when
i close my eyes, you’re the first thing in my mind, and when i wake up
in the morning, still, you, i see… again… but only in my thoughts,
just mere illusions

i
need your lips, your love, i want your embrace, the heat of your body
next to mine, i need you my love, my only one, i need you tonight and
forrever

so please be mine, if it can’t be forever… be it just for tonight… but please even once, be mine…

“If you would ask me why, all that I could reply, is that I just wanted to try, all I did was to pry, and then the next was that I, just made us both cry… and I then told another lie, if you would ask me why, I did it so that I won’t die, for the truth would make me sigh, but all my lies you didn’t buy, and now my life is oh so dry… I feel damned and too shy to try… “

the pendulum revolts my inside;
spikes everyhting that i tried to hide;
coldness that gradually envelopes me;
when the hordes of death invades my body.

as much as i laugh is as much as i pour;
storms and thunders walloping my core;
everday’s rainbow’s losing it’s color;
another classical movie destined to bore.

your signals that’s thrashing and sure;
keeping me crashed unto the last floor;
thorns that are penetrating my insides;
then the interweaving vigors collides;

stealing my last drop of sleep and might;
like thief keeping me wake allthrough
the night…

Do you still remember when we were still
together?
We were so happy and we really loved
each other.
So good it felt and so content that
you’re this near;
You never made made me shed even a bead
of tear.
other’s hood;
Whenever I get down and drowned, not in
the mood;
You’re just still there, never left, not
even when i get rude.One time you drag me someplace i do not
know where;
I asked, “where are we?”… you said,
“it doesn’t matter”.
I just kept silent…’doesn’t matter as
long as we’re together;
It was so much that happiness, not one
word i could utter.

It was then, finally?, it just happened,
we had our first kiss;
I felt so unreal, it was a dream, for
me, it like a math quiz;
The chemistry was so intense I was cold
and was stuttering;
I never slept at that day… and i went
on until next morning.

When I looked at you and see that sunny
sunny face;
I just smile, I can’t beleive but then
continuously gaze;

And so pleased and all, how lucky I am
for having you;
But of course, what can I do, all of
this is so not true… just my
imagination…

hanggang titig nalang sa iyong mga matatamis na ngiti;

hanggang imahinasyong nalang na ika’y makapiling pang muli;

hanggang alaala nalang ba ang ating mga masasayang sandali?

hanggang pangarap nalang ang matagal ko nang minimithi…

hanggang nakaraan nalang ang ating pagsasamahan

hanggang dito nalang pagkat tayo’y nagkasamaan…

I am an angel of the wallowing shadows

Skulking at your most and then swallows

At your being and all that belongs to you

Turned on by that thing, your point of cue

Everyday I guard waiting for you to salute

Then seize you but tenderly and then shoot

The burning hell in so much of a pleasure

Don’t want to be afar, my new found treasure

Slithering snake of a liar, seventh angel’s on fire

All get so intense and still goes higher and higher

Lika a thief in the night with nothing in repent

Just to thrash you, my innocent sashaying serpent

If you walk away from me today;

I will understand but still feels betrayed,

‘Coz I don’t know, why you wanna go;

Is it me? Is this just a show?

Baby I don’t know, was it all true

When you say, “I love you…”;

Oh I don’t know if you feel it too,

When I say, “I love you…”

‘Coz baby it’s  true, baby it’s true, that I love you…

And if you walk away from me today;

I will understand, but does the love you layed,

Unto me… is true? For now I don’t know;

If it’s me and you…was it all just a show,

But maybe its true, you loved me too.

Does it hurt you too? Leaving me, alone and blue;

Oh I don’t know when it’s true, when you say… I love you,

But baby all i know, is that I love you;

And that the feeling is true, when i say… I love you.

Baby i will miss you, ‘coz i love you, baby it’s you,

I LOVE YOU…